ANINHA

Sometimes I just need to reset and reload, a time to think about my own stuffs and recollect myself the adventures my life furnish me.
This is being a stressful week, since I use to be an active person, now I am a dead battery. I am sleepy, tired and moody.
Time like this I forget about my goals and the reason why I am doing such things.
And follow my way!

What am I after??

Huh!

I guess nothing else than move on...

After I came to work in the west zone of Rio, where a steel mill is under construction, I became to know about the chinese culture. Before I just had no idea about that world, I am not alienated, and after the last Olympics games everybody searched a lil more about China and them culture, but I never been interacting with them, and now i just turn to east: see chinese, turn to west: see chinese. And I am more astonished when I see how big the asian comunity is large in Rio, I just never realized that.

And I have learned so much about the narrow eyed people, yet, I still not understanding much of madarin, I have learned some words, and its particular special. I was so surprised when I figured I just knew a few about they custumes and behavior, lol, and when I began to work, I have beed  intercepted by a chinese who asked me so many things like I was a alien from mars, and even if I am a talkative (very) person, and even if I am used to deal with foreigners, I  was embarassed because most of the time, I am used to be the asker. =D

I have tried some chinese food, and the first time it was an awful experience, I have been dragged into a chinese lunch without realize that, my boss has invited me to join her and some others guys  under a false pretense to check something, and I followed without to know what was going on. For my surprise, there was waiting for us some kind of pancake of cabbage and meat, some gizzard not salted and quail eggs. Well, it not seems so awful, and the pancakes was edibles, but I am not fond of gizzard, even when mom cooks that with corn meal and for the eggs, the host hoped we must eat it with the shells, this and the fear for such kind of  situation where I supose not deny... made the things even worse.

But for my amusement, I have been invited to have a tradicional chinese lunch, three months later, and I accepted the offer, since I am allergic to sea fruits and fish, I told to my host, to make sure I will not be into a misunderstanding situation. This time I really enjoyed. Great food, cucumber ham salade, rice, and pork and cauliflower. I had another chance to try chinese food, and it grew on me. Despite de fact there was food to feed three of me in the plate and I was so gawky trying to eat with the sticks... and a refectory full of chinese staring at me while my disarter try was happening. For my luck all and everybody was very friendly, and I made my way of eating! Of course after that I just start to pratice how to hold the sticks with pencils, pen and everything I could find to use .... hehe =)

I am very glad and lucky to have a chance to know, so many nice and friendly people, and some more about this far country from mine.

Ana C.

You can choice:

Where you live

Where you go

Where you like to be at

Whom to speak with

Whom to be with

Whom to hang with

Whom to care of

Who to love

Who to miss

How to feel

How to love

How to speak

How to silent

How to hear

   How to be ...

I ve been wondering if a soul could only be saved for gratitude and regret, if not, what the terms to save?
Love is no longer a way for the happiness, sex is no longer a way for self contemplation.

When no regret is felt and gratitude is the bare feeling... should you find a way to save your soul.. with effort or should you let it go.. without wonder......

No bleeding is necessary, no hurt is mandatory, no pain...

I am very disapointed how civilized humans still being so impolite... Gee, its hard to believe, that people can ever have any kind of relation with some one, interact to other people ????

Be polite do not imply in being more or less than someone, just that you are being yourself and caring about not to hurt someone. That doesn't cost a thing, And make your soul more bright.

Politeness is something you cant pretend, its like you have or not, because sooner it will shows up. And you will reveal who you are.

Its just 'cause I am truly upset, when I see someone - no worth - being rude just for no reason, to show superiority, and treat people whom doesn't deserve taht kind of bad treatment.

when it happens I really hold back myself, to not bitching, because I know I can be very bitter. But I ain't better than anybody just for realize that so , I shut my mouth.

Life will show these people, that they will receive back in the future what they are sharing now. And there´s no scape for the returns, it always happen, better to better, bad to bad.  

I am so happy that the things I am proud of are things that really belong to me, my family, my friends, my material things are earned from my hard work. And how I know they are true? because i know I am very well beloved, by my family, friends (near and far)and mates. I receive everyday that felling I am very cared. And for my knowledge it is more valuable than the word spoke out to hurt.

Done! Uffff!!!